kill your computer and read this in space

i got rid of my facebook a couple weeks ago and have since felt the glory and beauty of freedom and self-reliance all those poets speak of. It's much easier to focus on my own life when I'm not looking at baby pictures of someone I was in a biology class with my sophomore year of high school. that's just silly and creepy. because, really, there are so many other things to be looking at. it became such an addiction. and i really haven't noticed at all it's nonexistence in my life. instead of going on facebook, i read a book. or do my homework. or or or. the possibilities are endless when you are free. hm.

the intangibility of the internet only proves its lack of reality.
this modern human need to display personal information on screen, because that is all the internet can provide, a list of information, tears us away from our own grounding.
this "necessity" destroys everything natural about existence.
it tears our communication skills to shambles.
it puts a plethora of information in our mindset that only confuses our thought processes, because we don't know how to think for ourselves when we are enraptured in reading about the lives of others.
it tampers with the beauty of experience, which is how any sort of real connection is made.
it disables the ideals of learning, which is only wholly achieved by EXPERIENCE.
it takes away our holiness as human beings because it gives the ILLUSION that we are these tangible objects that can be felt and examined and understood by simply seeing as opposed to HOLDING.
we cannot feel with our hands experiences behind a screen.
and the only experiences worth experiencing are ones we do not look at, but ones we EMBODY.

thus, the internet has forever ruined the preciousness of human connections (yes, this blog is in that realm) and facebook has taken these ruins and constructed further lies around them that claim to be honest, but really, honesty rests in the collaboration of all senses, not this single sense of sight that makes us think we don't have to dig any further because all the information we could ever need is right in front of us, on this cleverly crafted machine whose insides are infinite. this is a lie, because it is only infinite due to human ingenuity, not nature. it is hiding more than we think. it is hiding so many so many things things things. we will never ever be able to see it all, so until we understand the idea that the internet is this singular invention we will never ever be able to see as a whole, will we be at peace with it. thus, i will never be at peace with it because i have this everlasting fear of the unknown and if i can't see everything in front of me and reason behind it, i am lost and confused and frustrated. this is why i deleted my facebook, because i'm afraid of it. because i don't understand its reason and purpose. it's. just. silly.

but don't worry friends, i'll be back. haha... afterall, i am only emma, a modern human unable to make real-life connections anymore, just like the rest of my gross generation.